small successes

This is mine.

Each new post I write is a success to me, if even just a small one. And while planning my next installment can sustain my imagination throughout the day- it doesn't beat that small spike of adrenaline I get every time I hit that "Publish" button. It's not a huge thing. It's anywhere from 15 minutes to a couple of hours out of my day and the only thing I get out of it is the joy of personal achievement. But something I never planned on was the way it acts as catalyst for other success.

Anybody close to me knows how profoundly lazy I can be (like that damn laundry I still haven't put away from this weekend). For me, finding motivation can be impossible if I have the option to put my responsibilities off for any length of time at all. I don't just mean days I mean hours, minutes, seconds- however long I can get away with not doing that thing I have to do because it's super lame and boring and stupid and I just don't wanna do it! (This happens a lot at work.)

And when I get this way (which is often) I have to trick myself into productivity. I tell myself to do just one thing- just one tiny thing I can finish in a half-second to give myself the briefest moment of accomplishment and get my rusty engines churning. My first reaction is usually no, leave me alone! Then follows the inner turmoil, the bartering, the scolding and other stuff that I won't get into but eventually I can usually cajole myself into doing one tiny little thing. Like finally throwing away that bottle cap that's been sitting on my nightstand for the past two (three?) months. And lo and behold- success! I am the queen of productivity! Suddenly I'm butthole deep in Clorox bleach and unscrewing the showers doors to get to that overlapping space that's impossible to reach with just a little scrubby.

Obviously that situation is a bit extreme, but you get my point. Success begets success and all that. What I'm saying is this: this blog is my dirty little bottle cap on the nightstand. Every new post I make tosses that sucker right in the garbage bin and lights a fire under me to go out and make more happen. And the best part of it is- I don't even have to force myself to do it! Writing this blog is a joy, a pleasure, a daily source of happiness and sharing that with my readers, inspiring them towards their own success, is the best feeling in the world. So here it is; my small, daily contribution; my joy to bring you joy; my success to bring you success. All done with the intention of the betterment of mankind.

But seriously, if someone could give me the motivation to put away my laundry from this weekend, that would be great...